{"id":988542,"date":"2024-11-02T18:42:23","date_gmt":"2024-11-02T15:42:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/imgazete.com.tr\/ekonomi-haberleri\/?p=988542"},"modified":"2024-11-02T18:42:23","modified_gmt":"2024-11-02T15:42:23","slug":"insan-insana-yuk","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/kultur\/insan-insana-yuk\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0130NSAN \u0130NSANA Y\u00dcK"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\"\"\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan bu yana ne zaman i\u00e7imi kimseye d\u00f6kemesem
\nimdad\u0131ma hep ka\u011f\u0131t kalem yeti\u015fti.
\nO anlatmak isteyip anlatamad\u0131klar\u0131mdan \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir birikim oldu.
\nHi\u00e7biri g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f ne \u00e7ok direni\u015f ne \u00e7ok hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f ne \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131t ne \u00e7ok umut.
\nKim bilir belki ben \u00f6l\u00fcnce birileri g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r,
\nherkes de hissesine d\u00fc\u015feni alarak okur.
\n\u015eimdi ben yine gecenin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 yaz\u0131yorum.
\nYazd\u0131k\u00e7a i\u00e7im dolup ta\u015f\u0131yor yazd\u0131k\u00e7a i\u00e7im rahatl\u0131yor.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yasl\u0131yorum yava\u015f\u00e7a kalemin omuzuna, ka\u011f\u0131t sessizce dinliyor.
\nOdada \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor.
\nM\u00fczik de benim en b\u00fcy\u00fck keyiflerimden biri. Bilgisayardan rastgele bir m\u00fczik a\u00e7t\u0131m.
\nBakmad\u0131m kim s\u00f6yleyecek ne s\u00f6yleyecek. \u015eark\u0131da aynen \u015f\u00f6yle diyordu :
\n\u201c\u015eu koskoca d\u00fcnya sana dar geldi can\u0131m\u201d.
\nAbart\u0131s\u0131z diyorum beynim zonklad\u0131 bu s\u00f6ze.
\n\u015eark\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fcm s\u00f6zleri \u00e7\u00f6pe gitti ve bir tek bu c\u00fcmle kald\u0131.
\nD\u00fcnya insana niye dar gelsin ki? Bilakis, insan insana y\u00fck.
\nD\u00fcnya d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyor kendi halinde.
\nBazen kafay\u0131 yiyecek gibi oluyorum d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e \u201c\u0130nsan insana y\u00fck!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn \u00e7ok hasta olmu\u015ftum. Annem \u00e7orba yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 , belki de hayat\u0131mda i\u00e7ti\u011fim en
\nlezzetli \u00e7orbayd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc annem elleri ile i\u00e7irmi\u015fti. Nas\u0131l mutlu olmu\u015ftum. Sonras\u0131nda
\nAnnem taba\u011f\u0131 mutfa\u011fa g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrken \u201cOnca i\u015fimin aras\u0131nda \u00e7orba yapt\u0131m, iyile\u015fse de
\nrahatlasak\u201d demi\u015fti evdeki kom\u015fuya. O i\u00e7erken d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en lezzetli \u00e7orbas\u0131 diye
\nadland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7orba a\u011fz\u0131mda k\u00f6t\u00fc bir tada d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc .Ve istemsizce geri \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131
\nmidemden. T\u0131pk\u0131 bir gece \u00f6nce hasta filan demeden bana tokat atan babam\u0131n ertesi
\nak\u015fam bana hastay\u0131m diye getirdi\u011fi \u00e7ikolataya sevinememem gibi .
\n\u0130nsan insana y\u00fck !.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte o g\u00fcnlerden kald\u0131 bende her \u015fey zaman\u0131nda yap\u0131lmal\u0131 hissi.
\nKendimi istemsizce h\u0131rpalad\u0131m herkes mutlu olsun diye. Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k beklemeden bir \u015fey
\nistemeden .
\nBu bir travma m\u0131d\u0131r bilmem ama sanki insanlar\u0131n bana nas\u0131l davranmas\u0131n\u0131 istedimse
\n\u00f6yle davrand\u0131m herkese. Bende olmayan\u0131, bana verilmeyeni ben verdim onlar mutlu
\nolsun diye. Hem de hi\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k beklemeden.
\nSessizce hayk\u0131rd\u0131m yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m her \u015feyle insan insana y\u00fck de\u011fil bak\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn diye .<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan insana y\u00fck de\u011fil muhta\u00e7 .Y\u00fck ba\u015fka bir \u015fey muhta\u00e7l\u0131k ba\u015fka.
\nBen kimselere sana muhtac\u0131m diyemedim \u201cY\u00fck\u201d gibi angarya bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn alt\u0131nda
\nezilirken.
\n\u015eimdi gecenin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 itiraf ediyorum \u201c Ben sana muhtac\u0131m\u201d.
\nKimse duymasa da olur ben duyuyorum.
\nBilgisayarda bir c\u00fcmlesine tak\u0131l\u0131p onlarca kez dinledi\u011fim \u015fark\u0131 e\u015fli\u011finde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.
\n\u0130brahim Erkal abi \u015f\u00f6yle ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f \u015fark\u0131ya
\n\u201c G\u00fcllere de k\u00fcst\u00fcm a\u00e7mas\u0131nlar
\nFallara da k\u00fcst\u00fcm \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131nlar\u201d
\nSonrada bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 yazmama sebep olan malum c\u00fcmle ile devam etmi\u015f.
\nBiliyor musun \u0130brahim abi ….
\nBen \u00f6mr\u00fcm yetti\u011fi s\u00fcrece g\u00fcllere k\u00fcsmeyece\u011fim hep a\u00e7s\u0131nlar. Fallara da
\nk\u00fcsmeyece\u011fim l\u00fctfen \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131nlar.
\nVe ben \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyunca y\u00fck olmayaca\u011f\u0131m bir y\u00fcre\u011fi dileyece\u011fim.
\n\u00c7orbay\u0131 keyifle yapan… Ak\u015fam beni mutlu edip sabah\u0131nda \u00e7ok sevece\u011fim \u00e7ikolatay\u0131 alan…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

  \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan bu yana ne zaman i\u00e7imi kimseye d\u00f6kemesem imdad\u0131ma hep ka\u011f\u0131t kalem yeti\u015fti. O anlatmak isteyip anlatamad\u0131klar\u0131mdan \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir birikim oldu. Hi\u00e7biri g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f ne \u00e7ok direni\u015f ne \u00e7ok hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f ne \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131t ne \u00e7ok umut. Kim bilir belki ben \u00f6l\u00fcnce birileri g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r, herkes de hissesine d\u00fc\u015feni alarak okur. \u015eimdi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":988554,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1388],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-988542","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kultur"],"amp_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988542","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=988542"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988542\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/988554"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=988542"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=988542"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imgazete.tr\/yalova-cinarcik\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=988542"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}